| Sixteen Isn't So Sweet... |
[Jul. 27th, 2009|08:10 pm] |
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But my boyfriend is...Mmmm...
I don't mean to run,
But every time you come around,
I feel more alive than ever.
And I guess it's too much,
Maybe we're too young and I don't even know what's real.
But I know I've never wanted anything so bad.
I've never wanted anyone so bad.
If I let you love me,
Be the one adored.
Would you go all the way?
Be the one I'm looking for.
If I let you love me,
Be the one adored.
Would you go all the way?
Be the one I'm looking for.
Help me come back down,
From high above the clouds.
You know I'm suffocating,
But I blame this town.
Why do I deny the things that burn inside?
Down deep, I'm barely breathing,
But you just see a smile.
And I don't want to let this go.
Really, I just want to know,
If I let you love me,
Be the one adored.
Would you go all the way?
Be the one I'm looking for.
If I let you love me,
Be the one adored.
Would you go all the way?
Be the one I'm looking for.
If I let you love me,
Be the one adored.
Would you go all the way?
Be the one I'm looking for.
If I let you love me,
Be the one adored.
Would you go all the way?
Be the one I'm looking for.
If I let you love me,
Be the one adored.
Would you go all the way?
Be the one I'm looking for.
I love him... |
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| The Meaning Of Balancing... |
[Jun. 23rd, 2009|06:18 pm] |
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| | Suicide Silence-Disengage | ] |
I most certainly feel like I'm not appreaciated. First I am forced to be here with my most disliked person ever. She is so goddamn lazy and never does anything for herself. She expects me to do everything. How can I help someone who refuses to help themselves? She if just fucking up like she did with my brother. I'm going to abandon her just like she did to us before. Not that I mind being by myself and not have to be bothered by her, but she wanted me here so fucking badly then why the hell isn't she taking care of my needs? She is the worst mother on the entire fucking universe!!!! |
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| Eh... |
[Jun. 22nd, 2009|10:01 pm] |
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| |  angry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Emery-The Poor and The Prevelant | ] |
I wished that people saw what I see in him. They just don't understand how much he means to me. Now that my dad is gone, he is really the only thing that makes me happy. I can't belive that everything just keeps getting worse. Just when you think that things are getting better, things start to fall again. I always get so happy when I'm around him. He truely does make me so happy, I just wished that I could see him more than I do. I can't explain how much he means to me. When will I be happy again? I mean, this entire yeah I have just been so "bipolar" my moods keep shifting. Im pretty sure that's not good for me. Why does life have to be so cruel. What kind of "God" would put people in this kind of misery. I used to think that everything happens for a reason, but what good could possibly replace my dad? Nothing, abousltley nothing good can come from that! |
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[Jun. 7th, 2009|08:02 pm] |
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So it's been two months since my dad died. I can't believe that he is really gone. I wish I was in a coma or something and Im just dreaming all of this. Its crazy how someone can just be ripped away from you that fast. My father was the greatest dad in the entire world. I just wish that he was still here to make stupid faces or dance around to Xanadu. lol I loved those four months when I was there. I was so happy to just be away from everything here and get to spend time with him. I just wish all of this was a dream or anything but the reality. |
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| My Beloved Father. |
[Jun. 7th, 2009|07:59 pm] |
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| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Cath- Death Cab For Cutie | ] |
As much as I feel that this is all a dream and nothing ever happened, I am terribly wrong. For a matter of fact, he is gone, I can never talk to him or hear his voice. It breaks my heart that I lost one of the most important people in my life. I would do anything to have him back. It just freaks me out to say that he "died". No one can understand the pain that Im going through, fuck I dont even understand it. I wish that I did though, that way maybe I would be able to fix it. I get so mad at myself because maybe there was something that I should have done, and maybe he would still be here. All I want it for him to come into my room at night and tell me "I love you, and Goodnight". Even if I dreamt it at night maybe that would satisfy me. He was the most amazing father anyone could ask for. |
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| New Beggings!!! |
[Feb. 18th, 2009|11:19 pm] |
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| | Room | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | FINAL RIOT | ] |
Well recently I moved to Lexington with my dad. Thank God I got out of the ewing area. There are so many new opportunites here, and Im being homeschooled and I dont have to deal with people. I hate having to be dragged in the whole high school drama stuff. It really sucks that I cant be with Jamie, but we both are happier now, Soon in a year we will be together forever and be the happiest couple ever. I love him so much and it just sucks that, that had to happen to us. I just have to say one thing, "never take your loved ones for granted" because one day that can be ripped right away from you so fast. And let me tell you, it sucks, that was one of the most harsh things to ever happen to me. |
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| No Pity For A Coward... |
[Jul. 11th, 2008|12:39 pm] |
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| | Momma's | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | No Pity For A Coward- Suicide Silence | ] |
Well as of now I am dating the most amazing guy in the world. His name is Jamie Richard Robinson. He is mainly the most important thing to me other than my family. If I was to ever lose him, I dont know what I would do. I know that every teenage girl thinkgs that they are in love, and most people say "well you dont even know what love is" but ever since I've met this boy I have discovered LOVE!!! Anyways I havent posted a jornal in awhile now, I've been getting in a lot of fights and such with parts of my family. So now I am living with my mom for the time being. I guess Im just not as good as my big amazing brother, that everyone knows and respects. I guess fighting with parents is a normal thing for teenagers, but god it is so stressfull. Am also going to be a sophmore this year. Thank god just like 3 more years of being stuck in this shitty place, I hate it here. To much high school drama and all that stupid shit.
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| OMG |
[Jan. 19th, 2008|01:27 am] |
Its been like years since Ive been on here or at least it feels like it... But yeah nothing much has been going on...Just been addicited to MySpace and yeah it really is my addiction...lol...OMG Every Time I Die is so good...Ive been listening to them a lot lately and I cant quit listening to them...I cant wait to see them at Warped Tour this summer... |
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| WOW |
[Jun. 13th, 2007|01:14 am] |
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| | Lexington | ] |
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| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Paramore | ] |
Wow I haven't been on here in forever so were do I start....Oh ok well Saturday I get to go to the mall here in Lexington from like 1-5 to watch CHIODOS and get them to sign my stuff.
I miss Kelsey and Felicia so much I havent seen them since school has been out I just want to go see a movie and then go out to eat and catch up on everything.
Um let see what else oh yeah well I have been talking to this guy and we just talk I mean I am not dating him or anything but he yelled at me yesturday for "hanging" up on him. But I didnt and I just need a break from him.
RIOT is such a great CD I love all of the songs and the guitars it is great. Cant wait till warped either. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 30th, 2006|11:41 pm] |
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WEll it has been a fun and short year.Because I guess I started high school and it has just gone by fast.Even though it has been a short year a lot of things have happened this year.
1. I started high school and got rid of my old backstabbing friends and found new friends.
2.I met Lacey,We used to be best friend in like headstart and reunited during track season and became best friends again.
I cant wait till 2007 because either it will get worse or it will get better.Hopefully it will get better. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 9th, 2006|08:25 pm] |
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Well today has been fun.This morning we got up and went to middlesboro and got some clothes.Then Lacy came over and kept making fun of me because when I am around Landon my voice gets all high and stuff but that is only because I just now started talking to him a lot more and I get nervous.
I am running cross crontry on tuesday at Panther Creek and I am so nervous.That is all that is happening. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 2nd, 2006|10:49 pm] |
Well I haven't posted in a while.Well today we had to go to Collins meet in Bristol.The we went to the bristol and kingsport mall.Collin saw tons of his freind at the mall.
Well I have been likeing Thomas Walker I guess.And Adam and I broke up like 3 weeks ago.And I like this guy and I like get really nervous when I want to talk to him.But we have been talking a little bit more.
I am running cross country.I think I suck but we will see what happens later.
I went to the football game last night and of course we lost are team sucks,but I got to talk to a lot of people and then racheal came so I guess it was ok other than the rain. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 13th, 2006|07:57 pm] |
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| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Fever | ] |
Well I had fun today fist I went to Middlesboro with Lacy and walked around wal-mart and Jcpenny's.
And then we went to her grandmothers and ate some popcorn chicken.
When I got home Lucas and Adam were outside and then they came over and they invited me to come over and swim.And then that moment came and we kissed.It was the first kiss that ever ment anything to me. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 12th, 2006|09:03 pm] |
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| | Home | ] |
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| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The academy is... Fever | ] |
Well first of all I like Thomas Walker. I like my schedule and teachers.
I guess what I have been waiting for has now come true I have a boyfriend.His name is Adam and he is so sweet and nice I have been hanging out with him and lucas for the past couple of nights.
I finally got to meet Collin's girlfriend she is so nice.
Tommorow I am going to go shopping with Lacy sometime tommorow and hang out with Adam. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 5th, 2006|10:08 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
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| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | queen and i | ] |
Well all I did today was go to te mall with collin and walked around.I can not belive school starts on thursday. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 2nd, 2006|04:06 pm] |
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| | Home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Gym class heros | ] |
Well I havent been doing much today exept playing with my puppies and watching warped wednesday.
I have also been worring about Kelsey she hasn't called me back at all today.I feel so bad because it was partly my fault that she wrecked.
It is also a bad day because Collin told me that Underouth droped out of warped because of damn NOFX because of underouth's religon or something it just really pisses me off.
I cant belive school starts next week.This summer was so short.I dont want to go to Thomas Walker it is not because I am scared or anything but I don't like most of the kids up there.And Collin want be here next year.But I guess I can make it without him but it will be really hard. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 31st, 2006|02:38 pm] |
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| [ | mood |
| |  worried | ] |
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| | 7 weeks | ] |
Well yesturday I went to my friend Kelsey's house for her little brothers birthday party.Then we rode our bikes and she wrecked and chipped both of her front teeth and messed up her chin and had her mom and dad think that she may have spung her jaw a little bit.
So that is all that has happened lately. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 28th, 2006|03:38 pm] |
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| |  energetic | ] |
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| | the academy is...-The phrase that pays | ] |
Well it has been a while since I posted a live journal.But the only important thing is that I had a great time at warped.I saw {the acdemy is...,Gym class heroes,hellogoodbye,silverstein,motion city soundtrack,afi,underoath,and armor for sleep witch most of them were good.Cause I saw Willam and gym class heroes play together witch is good cause I love Willam Beckett.
Well today we came back from my dads today and got my superhero jacket for my birthday. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 24th, 2006|07:13 pm] |
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| | Home | ] |
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| |  excited | ] |
Well tommorow Collin and I are going to our dad's in Lexington around like 7:00 in the morning.And then on wednesday we are going to warped tour in Cinncinnati.
I have notr done much today just layed around thinking what I am going to tell Willam Beckett fron the academy is if I meet them the same for afi and armor for sleep I am so exited. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 22nd, 2006|08:18 pm] |
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| | Home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
Today me and my friends woke up this morning and went to Middlesboro and then we took them home.I have been bored all day.
See Collin told me that maybe we could go to the patio for my birthday and Racheal was going to go with us.I think.Then she calls and said that she couldn't go for some reason I did not ask.I get this feeling like she hates me or something because everytime Collin says that they would stop by but never does.I dont think I ever did anything to make her mad or something Ijust dont know.
So then Collin and I went to Pennington and ate at huddle house and drove around and talked like brothers and sisters do.
Today hasnt been that bad I guess. |
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